Sidewalk Bends

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Planting a Seed

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green light

This is dedicated to my mom who inspired this thought.

Several years ago while meditating I decided to ask God to show me Himself. I asked Him to show me what God is, and to remove any of my preconceived thoughts of God and of existence itself. I asked that any internal and external biases be removed so that I may come to understand.

As I asked this through my heart, I attempted to quiet my mind. What I experienced and what I saw I could not expect. With my eyes opened, I became blind. I could not see anything. Slowly my vision went, and everything became black. There was not even a hint of light. With my ears straining to hear any voice or sound, I could hear nothing. The buzzing of the street lights disappeared and the distant traffic became non-existent to my ears. I had become deaf. Next my racing mind seemed to pause. All thoughts sank away. Not even an image or random thought had crossed my mind. It was quiet, yet at the same time I was all too aware that it was quiet. It was not overwhelming. I was peace.

Not a worry had occupied me. As I became aware of this emptiness, this lack of sensation, I began to see a tunnel in my mind’s eye. At the end or perhaps it was the beginning, I saw what appeared to be a green light, beckoning, almost like a cocoon. With that, I began to hear again and I began to see again. The image had disappeared and thoughts came flooding back.

At the time this occurred, I thought I had understood what happened. I thought I knew what God or perhaps my inner self was trying to tell me. I found solace in this quietness, this communion of sorts. And yet today I found myself seeing more understanding in this experience. I found God to be everything, and at the same time I found God to be nothing. I found God to be peace, inner peace, a choice seemingly made by me, but not entirely by me. Perhaps like a seed in our heart, God is there waiting to be nurtured, waiting to show us our true selves, our true potential.

What or who is God to you?

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  1. God is in your Heart and as you grow spiritually you become more at peace, the need to search ends, you live as one, and as you say inner piece, big things within the mind do not matter as long as you are living your life in peace, let battle commence, for now my friend the tests really begin, mind over matter, what matters to your Heart and what matters to your mind.

    ianmohammadabdullah1

    April 20, 2012 at 1:41 am

  2. Awesome my friend, now you really are going to be tested, knowing and feeling within the Heart against what the mind accepts, let battle commence lol

    Watcher

    April 20, 2012 at 1:44 am

    • Are you able to forget self?

      watcher01

      April 23, 2012 at 9:07 pm

      • Admittedly, I must say no, not yet. At times yes, and other times no. Goes back to fear and expectations – things to work on.

        sidewalkbends

        April 25, 2012 at 11:27 pm


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